The last two weeks have been a time of celebration and despair. My life has gone into a sort of free fall. My family and I have hit the worst case scenario, and it looks like at the end of the month we'll be homeless. If we can get a little money together then if forced to we'll buy a camper, and basically live where ever we can. Florida has a lot of beautiful state parks with year round camping so if we can pull that off, despite being uncomfortable, there's something about it that sounds appealing.
The real problem is that all our unemployment payments have run out, and I can't find a job to save my life. Even the super crummy telemarketing jobs that used to pay well now want you to have bachelors degrees. I even went on a job interview that involved calling numbers out of the phone book to sell magazine subscriptions. I went with my dad. I believe we both got turned down. The interviewer was some 19 year old blond. You can tell she's never sold squat.
She told me that they were looking for some one who was "over the top." I explained to her that over the top is no problem for me. In fact it comes natural. She asked me to give her an example. I started to tell a story involving a band I was in, but thought better of it. I searched my mind, but couldn't come up with an example of me being over the top that was office friendly. Even at this moment I can't think of an example that doesn't involve profanity, jokes so off color they have no color, or excessive drinking.
Anyways I did not get the job. You know times are seriously tough when you can't even get a crummy job.
I don't know where I will end up at the end of this month, like I said, but I'm kind of looking forward to seeing the kind of person I become when I get through the other side of all of this. I have to believe God has a plan for me, and I know as well as he does that I could use a serious shaking up. Still, it's not easy. Who figures they're going to be homeless at 28? Luckily I have some good people around me willing to help as best they can.
On the bright side my sister got married. We are not Mormons so we couldn't go to the original ceremony since non Mormons aren't allowed in the temple. Two days later they came down and had a second ceremony for the family. I met my sister's husband for the first time as well as his family. His parents are Mormons by the way. Every one was so nice, and I had a little talk with her husband. He seems very cool though Mormons can be so enthusiastic that at times you might suspect them of condescension.
The ceremony was lovely. I saw some people I haven't seen in years, and the food was amazing. I was asked to get up and say a prayer before they did their vows in order to bless the union. I was busy video taping everything and forgot all about it. When they called me up my heart nearly jumped into my throat.
It was nice to forget about things for a while. Does it feel like the world is about to end at times? I'm not prone to anthropomorphizing tragedy, but there's so much going on in the world. So much chaos. I imagine this is how people felt when the stock market crashed, and then a few years later the entire world went to war.
Well time marches on, we keep growing, and so does my rapidly expanding interest in South Korean girl groups. Is it a guilty pleasure or something kind of cultural thing? Maybe both. Who knows? Well thank you all for reading. I will continue to update to let you know what's going on my life, and I hope I inspire some of you.
Discovered this today. My interest makes even me uncomfortable.
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