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I have not spent a sober night in longer than I can remember. Last night, and without the use of sleep aids, I did not touch a drop of drink. That isn't to say I slept at all or was comfortable. The human body is odd, and last night mine was doing unnatural things. Even while sitting up and reading different muscles in my body would spasm causing me to kick out a leg suddenly and uncontrollably or shoot out an arm.

At one point I felt like I was coming down off of LSD. My veins felt like they were coursing with poison, I felt like I was speeding forward through time, and for a brief period my hand eye coordination began to fail. I watched a movie (The Other Boleyn Girl), and did a little Bible study until around 2:30 or 3. I seem to remember hearing or reading something about how you should make small changes to your daily habits when attempting something like this. So I decided to sleep on the couch instead of my own bed. Of course the couch is far more comfortable than my bed so I wasn't making a dramatic shift.

As far as I can recall it wasn't until around 4 that I think I began to doze off. Not sleep, but doze off. My mind would suddenly shoot awake in that state between waking and dreaming. At points I could actually see myself slipping into a dream as if it was beginning to form. The best way I can describe this is that it's like if you ever you've owned an old television, the kind that takes a second to warm up before coming on, you might recall how you could see the image on the screen kind of gray and washed out before it kicked into full color. That's what it was like.

As time went on it started getting worse. I would slip deeper into this dream state, and when I would suddenly startle upward my mind would remain half way between asleep and awake for several seconds despite my eyes being fully open. It was disorienting and kind of frightening. What's more I was filled with this irrational dread that something was waiting for me just out of my line of sight. Interesting stuff.

At some point I opened my eyes, and the sun was coming up. I felt more comfortable and less vulnerable, and drifted off to sleep till my father woke up. Then I went into my room, and slept on and off. My bed is very uncomfortable since they gave my mattress top to my sister so I can sleep about an hour and a half or so before waking up and having to turn to another side. All in all I feel like I slept on a pile of bricks, and I have one of those kinds of headaches you get before you get the flu.

Still not as bad as I anticipated. I figure it'll be another day or two before I kick the insomnia. I'll dry out and keep my partying habits down to one night a week. Till then I'll just have to think of even more interesting things to do with my newly found free time.

On a positive note after a week of trying I finally got my sound card working normally. Praise God. Now here's some one who knows what it's like.